Chose You

( a letter to a little boy about to become a big brother )

I sit at my kitchen table typing this to you
Far too young to read this
But soon it will be yours

We are expecting the arrival of your baby brother
I am a wreck, imagining how it’s going to be
In tears I am, writing this

To me, you were only born yesterday
You’re still a baby boy
So how can I love another in equal measure?

I want you to know B, you’ve taught me what love is.
I have never loved another like I love you
Watching your quirks, your adorable smile
Your little swagger as you walk

You are every bit adorable. No questions asked
I hope I am being good to you, darling boy
My confidence in this wavers - I question a lot
What did I do to deserve a beautiful treasure as you?
Where did you come from? How are you with us?

I can’t imagine the first moment you set eyes on him
Will you smile or frown? Will you be happy or confused?
If you cry I won’t bear it. Please don’t little man.
Please be strong so I can be strong too.

Know I’ll always be here, I’ll never leave you.
I’m always your mummy, because I chose you, and you chose me.

Sophie Slosarczyk

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